Blue

Thus far November, supposed to be big changes for me...as yet nothing. So feeling very blue today, frustrated with my life....I feel things are not progressing at all...like I'm standing at the base of a mountain with no idea how to get over or around it. I love my writing...but what am I supposed to be when I grow up? Today I feel like I want to escape to a different place, leave everything and everyone behind and start over. It's not mature but it's how I feel. Unknown and unappreciated. I have been working on trying to be positive...doesn't seem to penetrate today. Today is wallowing, unable to see the blue skies or brighter horizons. Even music is not inspiring. Here's hoping for better days.